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USERNAME: @thevampirelestat Lestat de Lioncourt The Vampire Chronicles TEXT • AUDIO • VIDEO • ACTION • OVERFLOW

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[deathoftheauthor]

( He is TRYING to keep his composure while handcuffed, which is only making things worse. )

Very well. I'm angry. I'm angry because I love you, and because I know that love is absolutely useless to protect you, or even to stop you from putting yourself at unnecessary risk. And because I still want to see you despite being furious. And because we are having this conversation over text, while I am chained to a strange woman with antlers and attempting not to make a fool of myself, and you are apparently in good company and not concerned for yourself in the least.

Is that better?

[perfectdevil]

[ There is a lot to unpack in all that. Lestat is failing completely at maintaining his composure, but he hasn't spared a single thought for how Dorian might be perceiving him. He's trying not to let himself get distracted rereading those three words in text - how do they make him feel so different compared to hearing them - and is trying very much to formulate a response, but.. God, why is this so much harder than just talking?? ]

I wasn't looking for trouble, you idiot. I wasn't hoping for this or even welcoming it. I meant what I said, I didn't think such a small bite would incur any wrath. I wasn't hiding it from you. As you said, you noticed.

And I didn't harm her, in fact she all but encouraged me. Ask her yourself. I haven't seen any other creatures with antlers since my arrival.

I'm miserable doing this with you over text. The man I'm chained to is a friend of Ethan Chandler. I have no choice but to pantomime as some human drunk, and all I want is to see you. I want you furious with me enough that you can barely look at me. I want you to know exactly how you break my heart when you call your love useless and God, I want it to hurt.

[deathoftheauthor]

( Oh, Louis regrets this immediately; he doesn't want to cry in front of a stranger, and that last sentence hurts like a physical blow, and the fact that it was her only makes this more embarrassing. And in spite of his hurt feelings, he's still afraid for Lestat. )

If you both enjoyed it, then I have no reason at all to be upset.

( Except that he's remembering his conversation with Armand, and feeling the keenest sense of loneliness. )

Be safe, Lestat.